To You

Hello friends and family and teachers and....

It's me here again, trying to get some of my thoughts out of my brain and into writing. One thing I'm always thinking about is how to PROPERLY convey my gratitude to you for everything you've been giving me. Just as before and just as always, I can't seem to find anything more than words. I wish it were easier than words. I wish there was something I could pick up at an expensive shop in Lusaka that would be enough. I wish I could pick it off the shelf, wrap it, hand it to you and then you would know. You would now how grateful I am, by the size and the colour and the shine and the cost. However I always come to the same conclusion, nothing is big enough. Nothing would ever be big enough and therefore I'm left with words.


I'm only saying this now because you've done so much for me. It's gone on too long without me saying anything and your kindness towards me needs to be awknowledged now.


What I did to receive your genorosity seemed very simple to me. All I did one day was listen to something inside of me that felt pretty right. That led me to africa and it took me straight to Kibombomene in Zambia. I gave a lot up in return for the opportunity to give and receive real love. Real love I think means something different for everyone, but for me it has a lot to do with sacrifice.


That's it. I gave some things up in an attempt to know love. I'd do it again and I will do it again because my life feels better than it was. I gave these things up and it was challenging and life got hard, but I always knew what I was looking for. I gave things up and love started to reveal itself to me. It was slow at first but now it shows up all the time. It shows up because now I allow it to show up and before I couldn't.


I want to apologise if I haven't said thankyou in the right way. Saying it in the right way would mean that you would feel my appreciation instead of hearing it.


What helps me to understand how love is played out in the world is a song called 'Love Never Fails' by Brandon Heath. I could listen to it a trillion times over and I would still crave to understand everything the song goes on about. A friend of mine just walked down the aisle to this song playing and it never sounded more true. My favourite parts of the song sing:

"Love will sustain. Love will provide. Love will not cease at the end of time. Love will protect. Love always hopes. Love still believes when you don't....love is right here. Love is alive. Love is the way, the truth, the life".


Thank YOU. You know exactly who you ALL are. I am so grateful.